Monday, January 30, 2012

I'm Supposed to Feel LIke This

Alrighty. Day one on the five day pouch diet plan and...well...I haven't strangled anyone or started eating through the piles of paper on my desk yet. I'll take that as a good sign. It's just about dinnertime and I have successfully managed to stay true to the liquid diet phase of the plan. Yay me!

I started with my beloved coffee. If a plan doesn't include coffee, it doesn't include me. So after two cups of coffee, I was feeling pretty good. I can actually go quite a while after I wake up without getting hungry (we shall see tomorrow if that's because I usually stuff myself to the gills the night before!). Around 10:00 I tried an Atkins chocolate mocha shake. It was just kind of meh. It wasn't horrible, but it certainly wasn't anything I'm looking forward to having again. I drank some water during the day and then had an iced latte (hey, it's liquid!). Around 3:30 I tried a sip of the chocolate Muscle Milk shake - wow - WAY better than the Atkins one! I'm actually kinda sorta looking forward to drinking it tomorrow. Around 4:30 I had some blended vegetable soup and for dinner I'm planning on a feast(?) of egg drop soup with some Chinese take-out for the hubs.

I actually feel good. Not just physically, but mentally. I know my battle will be won or lost in my mind. I can not remember the last time I felt in control of my eating. It's like I've been a victim of the food around me, powerless over its lure. I gave in every.single.time. If it crossed my mind to eat it and I had it, down my gullet it went. If I was at the store and saw something I wanted, I bought it. And ate it. All of it.  Fast food, favorite restaurant...no problem. I'm not saying that in the half a day that I've managed to show some form of restraint that I'm all cured and will be skinny tomorrow. But for today, I feel good. I feel in control for the first time in forever and I kind of feel like something clicked. Kind of like this girl.

So, thanks to anyone {especially you, Lorraine!} who sent me some good diety vibes. I think it's working. Keep 'em coming!


2 comments:

  1. WOW! Congrats! One step at a time! Today I had a horrible eating day and I want to quit WW. I am such an emotional eater and I've been stressed the last couple of days. What you accomplished today is FABULOUS and I know you can do it tomorrow!!!!!
    ~Lorraine

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